Too much.

I want to be able to write something meaningful, but right now there's
no hope in that ever being accomplished. It's something I have always
wanted to do, and still haven't accomplished it.
I am so stressed out I don't know what to do anymore.
I wake up with a headache and angry that I got 8 hours of sleep because
I have things that need to be done.
My computer is still broken. I have to take it to the useless computer
people here and have them charge me money I don't have. But what is
even better is, what is wrong with my computer was recalled last fall
after I got my computer and guess what they PURPOSLY neglected to tell
us. So, back to writing papers and doing a whole project on my cell
phone.
I have a week to do my information concepts project. I started it last
night. Oh so tideous. I don't know how many hours I spent going through
my CDs, trying to figure out what ones were missing, what ones were on
my computer, and getting 235 CDs to fit on 20 pieces of paper front and
back. Now I just have to convince my roommate to let me borrow her
computer so I can install my printer and print shit out. This will be
fun. I still have to sort my t shirts and shoes. Then put the whole
thing together. I don't think I'll sleep this week.
I haven't even started my media forms and concepts project because of my
lack of computer, so I will have to sidekick-it. I'll just have to wait
30 minutes for myspace to load, 20 minutes for Oh, Hush!'s myspace to
load, then probably about 10 minutes for each blog that there are 70-100
of. Then take notes on each one and take the important stuff then write
all of the papers on my sidekick. Oh and, no one is ever going to be
nice enough to help me with this.
Currently, I am still laying in bed because my roommate is in the
bathroom. I need to shower before I do anything else. We really need a
mirror in our bedroom.
I know I complain and whine too much, but it just happens. I guess I
could keep my mouth shut and go on not talking about my problems. No
one cares anyway. I should probably go find a good corner to cry in.
I just want things to be normal and function nicely like it does for
other people.
One thing I am excited about is, Christopher Guiterrez will have sent me
a new book by Christmas. He always makes me feel better. I think it's
an audio book day.

PS: please excuse any spelling (and maybe even grammar) mistakes, I
don't have a spell checker. :(
--Cassandar

Bfrhedwsj

I'm all alone again.
--Cassandar

Meh

It really sucks to find out you really don't have any talent
whatsoever. And it really sucks to feel like everyone around you lies
to make you feel better.

I have to let go and give up.

--Cassandar

This is how awesome my life is

I have to write my paper tonight on my phone, that has no screen light,
because my computer screen isn't working. It's been over two days since
I've had a screen. I have a headache that won't go away. I'm on the
verge of tears. I can't do this anymore. I can't take my computer to
the stupid computer people here because they just treat you like crap
and tell you you're dumb. Plus, I can't afford the $200 rental because
I have 78 cents in my checking account, my dad won't give me money
because his "wife" hasn't worked in four months which is my fault, and
my mom has managed to save up $140 in 3 months.

Life is wonderful.

--Cassandar

Conversation with Uhlee

Me: I hate my face and my butt.
Uhlee: thats weird, because i love your face and your butt
Uhlee: lol
Me: Hahahahaha

--Cassandar

Everything is about sex!

"There's a much better one that is inappropiate for me to show in class.
It's uh, the same concept of B movies and over dubbing... in a soft
japanese porn..."
-teacher.
--Cassandar

One of the many reasons I HATE Information Concepts:

"As always, your logs should be approximately 400 - 500 words in length and your writing should be clear, well-composed, and free of spelling and grammar mistakes. Use supporting research and/or examples from your own personal experience to reinforce your argument or thesis." - Teacher

"I get asked what I think about sampling a lot, and I've always wanted to have a short term to describe the process. Stuff like "collective ownership", "systems of memory", and "database logics" never really seem to cut it on the lecture circuit, so I guess you can think of this essay as a soundbite for the sonically-perplexed. This is an essay about memory as a vast playhouse where any sound can be you. Press "play" and this essay says "here goes":" - First paragraph of the reading assignment from Teacher. (I know my quotes are done incorrectly.)

I am extremely unhappy and angry.

Right now everything is just irritating to me. The fact that I am still breathing makes me want to destroy the world.

I am lucky enough to have a dishwasher in my apartment, but now it is broken. Apparently, my roommates are so spoiled, they don't know how to live without a dishwasher. It's been broken for about a week now and the dishes have piled up. I go to school four days a week and work two jobs - they just go to school. How is it that I have found time to wash all of my dishes and they haven't? When Kirsten was here last week, she even washed dishes - SHE EVEN WASHED ONE OF HARMONY'S BECAUSE SHE NEEDED IT TO MAKE LASAGNA AND HARMONY DIDN'T WASH IT FROM HER ASPARAGUS! Yesterday, I couldn't/wouldn't cook on the stove. None of the pots were clean and there was a pan full of peppers. So I had to go use the last of my money to buy something to cook in the microwave. And get this, when I finished, I WASHED my dishes, and then PUT THEM AWAY - amazing, I know. Tonight on my 15 minute break I came up to find five glasses and mug washed. I was pissed and hungry (at this point, I had only eaten fruit loops at 11.30 this morning and it was now 7.15) so I just threw all of the stuff stove in the sink so I could make a grilled cheese. Then, I took my pan and plate and set them on the microwave with a note saying "I will wash these when I get off." I get home, there are clean dishes washed, not put away, and someone decided it would be a good idea to put mine in the sink. Well, I washed, dried, and put away my dishes before peeing and taking off my work clothes. Not. That. Hard. We'll see how long this goes on, because there are still dishes in the sink and on the stove that are being neglected.

We have a HUGE living room, with no furniture, I was smart enough to bring a comfy chair to lounge in. I didn't realize that this meant I was never going to be able to sit in my chair. Both of them sit in it and take it whenever they please. Harmony actually stole it from me one time while I was doing homework so she could eat dinner and watch TV. Thanks for making me do my homework on the floor.

Cable. Over the summer, we were discussing the things that we wanted/needed for the apartment. We all agreed that we needed Internet, but neither one of them wanted cable. Well, I got cable, internet, and phone. The deal was, I didn't pay electric and gas, but I paid comcast. That sounds like a good idea, except when they both sit in the living room watching TV with the computers in their laps. I pay $200 a month for Comcast and they pay about $40-$60 a month each for electric and gas. I am to the point, where I am going to tell them that they are going to have to start paying for that too because I was under the impression that by not wanting something meant never or rarely using it.

Comcast is on my murder list anyway, when we inquired about cable and Internet, they said that their Triple Play package was $125 a month. There was a slight catch that the first couple of months there would be an extra charge for installation and crap, but I didn't realize that meant $500. Guess who had to pay that?! Yup. My bills are still over $200. Now, this is where it gets really frustrating. On my bill, it has the "bundle charge" as $109. Then, it has an Internet services charge of like $40. Now, I know I am not a mathmetican, but 109 plus 40 does not equal $125. Never mind the fact that I am being charged for Internet twice. I plan on writing a letter to Comcast to complain. I'd just call customer service, but I hate customer service - I don't have time for rehersed human beings that won't actually help me.

I am going to write the North Star Bar a letter for completely screwing Fall Out Boy fans over last Friday. They told us we weren't allowed to be seen before 2PM. So after pacing around a shady block, we chose to go to a pizza place and hang out. We left the pizza place at 1.30 to get ready to ninja in line at 2. We peek around the corner to see that there is already a line. My first instinct was to NOT get in the line, because it was before 2, and they could very easily be like "HA! You can't get in because you lined up before 2." But, I looked closer, and I saw the secruity guard down at the front of the line. How can you be a dick about rules, then break them yourself? Needless to say, we didn't get it and we wasted an entire day in the ghetto.

There's this girl Leigh Ann at work, don't get me wrong, she is nice to me (which is rare for a human being to do) and she is pretty funny, but sometimes I just want to tell her to shut up. She talks about how smart she is and blahblahblah, yet she's failing community college? She wanted to bazillion major in Anthropolgy, Russian, and like eight other things that no one really cares about. And now, all of a sudden, she wants to go to art school for Musical Theatre or "Video Production." (By video production, she means broadcast journalism - oh by the way, she didn't know the term, I had to tell her.) Tonight she was talking about all of the pericings and tattoos she still wants to get (she has like 8 peicings and 4 tattoos already) and she wants more. I am not a shallow person who judges someone one peircings and tattoos, but when you have an abundance of them, musical theatre and broadcast journalism aren't very smart fields to go into.

I live with such geniuses, that someone turned the radiator on in the kitchen, with the two trash bags (that they are neglecting to take out) left up against it. Go ahead burn the building down.

This is just a bad week. Everything that can go wrong has and will go wrong.

jnkghs;fg;kshfgyi['sdg'sl!

Conversation with Uhlee

Me: I a nut/freak/spaz.
Uhlee: lol
Uhlee: no no
Uhlee: just a poopsicle
Me: Why?
Me: Lol
Me: Whta did I do?
Uhlee: lol, nothing
Me: Thanks.
Uhlee: welcomes!
Uhlee: * tackle *
Me: Gtfo woman.
Uhlee: lol

--Cassandar

I'm in yo hoodeh...

...stealin yo strips!

I should probably be introduced to new music.

My artist of the week thing has kind of failed. Apparently, I only listen to 3OH!3 and CFOB according to my last.fm. Oops!

I think I will see if my roommate will let me borrow her iPod cord and I'll scrobble that to see what happens. My iPod is a competition between 3OH!3 and Leland Grant, so we'll see what happens.

I honestly haven't listened to much music recently, I should probably fix that...

Oh yay.

I have my screen back. I don't know why it died or why it came back. So, I suppose that's good. Now I can go back to being a functioning blogger and procrastinator. No more angry, suicidal sidekick posts.

This is fucking great.

My computer screen died out of fucking nowhere.
I want to kill myself.
--Cassandar

I did something I've never done before

I colored my hair with a box.
I know that sounds extremely bratty and stuck up (you can't always hide everything), but I have been spoiled with my hair. My step mom is/was a hairdresser, but I no longer speak to her so that's out of the window. My aunt is also a hairdresser, but she lives in West Virginia, so that's unattainable. I figured if my best friend's mom and grandma could color their hair with a box, I think I can. So I did. And it was successful... I think.
I seriously had anxiety, I always do when it comes to my hair.
No one noticed it either unless I told them. Oh well.

Before.

During - CVS Woman

Avocado Oil in mah hair!

Clean Hair.

After.

Hoodehs!

I have been slacking on my American Apparel topic, there just hasn't been anything that has really struck me, nor have I been searching to be struck.

This has to do with AA, but it's not really a review or a want. It's more of a random statement.

When Kirsten was here she wanted to go to American Apparel to get a hoodie - I'm not sure why since there's one in the 8OH!4, but the Philly one is more appealing to her. When I got off of work we walked over to AA and browsed the store, made fun of some stuff, and scrunched our noses at prices of tiny pieces of cloth. In the end she got the red hoodie that she had wanted for MONTHS.



The point of this is is, I now have red fuzz all over my stuff because of this red hoodie. What I don't understand is, I have the same hoodie, but in purple. I don't recall purple fuzz all over everything. And I've had this hoodie for like a year and it's only been washed twice, so the fuzz hasn't been washed away.



Anyway, I think I am going to be picking red fuzz off of my bedroom for the next 17 lifetimes.

:(

My best friend went home today. :(



Yes, I enjoy "Hannah Montana." Thanks.

For whatever reason, this makes me happy

I think it's my inner boy.

Free Coffee!!!!

Free Coffee for Voting!


mmmm!!

Lets Go Phillies!!

On the steps on Hamilton watching the parade!
--Cassandar

Ewwwwww

I just had a nose bleed.
That was unpleasant.
:(

It has been a night full of Hannah Montana. I'm pretty happy.
--Cassandar

T-t-tell your boyfriend, if he says he's got beef...

...that I'm a vegetarian and I'm not fucking scared of him.



3OH!3 is the band that is currently owning my last.fm.

They are a techno-rap band from Boulder, Colorado that makes me constantly dance and giggle. They currently have two albums, 3OH!3 and most recently WANT.



"Don't Trust Me" (lastest single)


"Holler Till You Pass Out"


"Electroshock"

"Real Fact" #151:

The fastest served ball in tennis was clocked at 154 miles an hour in
1963.
--Snapple

Scot the Spider

Yes, 1 t.
Scot the Spider is chillin on register 2 in Rittenhouse Market.
Also, in the bouquets of flowers, you can find more Scots hanging out.

Why would you put a SPIDER in a bouquet of flowers? That makes no sense
to me. If someon gave me flowers with a spider in it, I'd start beating
whoever with the flowers.

Not to mention, he has little hands on top of the eight legs.

Bad idea.
--Cassandar

Feeding Time

Source

Free Tacos
Music Sale
SNL Strikes Again
FOB on the Last Episode of TRL
Sex Pillow
This is NOT a Cat Toy
Bye Bye iPods
Apple Stands Against Proposition 8
First Shots of Heath Ledger's Final Film
Student Loans Suck

Source

Friday

I hate Fridays. I really do. The only think I like about Fridays is money. I get paycheck(s) on Friday and it goes in direct deposit, so it's like Christmas. But it's always fun balancing your checkbook and going from $700 to $100. Yay being a grown up.
Fridays are seriously the worst day of the week:
8.30-11.20: Information Concepts
11.30-4: Work Study
4-5: Dinner
5-10: Work
13 1/2 hours. The joy that is Friday.

Currently, I am at work study... I am really pondering going into Maria's office and napping on her couch for the next hour, that would be nice. I really don't know what to blog about. I am just kind of bored and don't know what to do. Michelle (my work study boss) and I are going to do a joint blog about our observations of humans. It will be the best blog in the entire world. I will obviously share it on here.

I worked on my screenplay a bit, I decided that if I ever become a screenwriter or if I ever have to write a screenplay for someone, I am going to pay another person to do the formatting for me. I do not have time for sluglines. Especially in phone conversations. Pfft.

INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON
EXT. OUTSIDE OF A JOB SITE - AFTERNOON
INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON
EXT. OUTSIDE OF A JOB SITE - AFTERNOON
INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON
EXT. OUTSIDE OF A JOB SITE - AFTERNOON
INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON
EXT. OUTSIDE OF A JOB SITE - AFTERNOON
INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON
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INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON
EXT. OUTSIDE OF A JOB SITE - AFTERNOON
INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON
EXT. OUTSIDE OF A JOB SITE - AFTERNOON
INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON
EXT. OUTSIDE OF A JOB SITE - AFTERNOON

INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON
EXT. JOB SITE - AFTERNOON
INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON
EXT. JOB SITE - AFTERNOON
INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON
EXT. JOB SITE - AFTERNOON
INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON
EXT. JOB SITE - AFTERNOON
INT. CHELSEA'S OFFICE - AFTERNOON

Freaking phone conversations. I don't think soooo! I hate to tell you, but if they're on the phone, the time of day isn't going to randomly change. Whatever.

I'm kind of sad 90210 hasn't been on for two weeks. Especially after the ending from the last episode - OH MAH GAWD.

I want to get something pierced.

I am bored and tired. I should probably shut up and find a way to nap (and pee).

Jack, this one is for you:

roflrazzi

lawls.

i can haz cheezburger

fail blog.

passive-aggressive notes

not hired

roflrazzi

i haz a hotdog

LOLCassandar

think think think...

So there are two things currently on my mind.
1. Dating
2. Nose piercings

I don't date because people 1. don't ask and 2. don't like me.
I understand that I am not the nicest person, but you know, I can be a decent human. At both of my jobs people are always talking about their boyfriends or what's happening in their dating life. This one kid is talking about how he's trying to date this girl and blahblahblah. This NEVER happens to me. Creepy men on the street and Ali are the only people who like me. I am starting to think that everyone in my life is lying to me and I am right. Oye. fkdjskjdgfhds;g

I want my nose pierced. But I am slightly terrified of it because on some days I won't want it and the simple fact that it would look DUMB on me. Here are my trial photos from a while ago...

eyeliner:



ring:



stud:



I don't even know why I am talking about my life. No one reads this crap!

Sugar Feeds!

Basically, this is going to be one of the feed posts. I don't know what my system for it is going to be yet, so this will be a work in progress.

Since, I am backed up in my feeds from the 9th, I figured I should start over with more "recent" stuff. These are all from a series of "sugar" websites.

PopSugar:
Are You Excited For Whitney Port's New Show The City?
Guess Who?

FabSugar:
Simply Fab: Gap Vote For Tee
A Fabby Halloween: Bat Ears

CitizenSugar:
Jon Stewart Stands Up For Fake Americans
Have Voting Questions? Here Are Voting Myths Busted!

BellaSugar:
Oh Man: Man Junk Products
In Which Bella is Tricked by Shampoo in the Jungle!

BuzzSugar:
Movie Preview: Efron and Perry in 17 Again
Buzz In: What Do You Think of Big-Name Cameos?

CasaSugar:
Definition: Wainscoting
DIY: Water Balloon Candle Holders

DearSugar:
Handle This: He's More Interested in Porn
A Do or a Don't: Getting Emotional in Public

LilSugar:
Politikids: Why Parents Should Take Their Kids to the Polls
Are You Trained in First Aid?

SavvySugar:
Money Tip: What to Do When You're Done With Your Debt
Five Energy Saving Ideas For Renters and Owners

FitSugar:
Diet Tip: Avoid Baggy Clothes
Halloween Survival Tip: Wait to Buy Your Candy

YumSugar:
Bat and Cat Cookies Two Ways — Beginner and Expert
Dunkin' Donuts Claims to Beat Starbucks in Coffee Taste Test

PetSugar:
Have You Ever Seen a Vicuña? (Hint: Check Out Baby Antonio.)
Creature Features: Sloth

GeekSugar:
How Many Photos Have You Taken This Year?
Are (Were) You an Apple Student?

GiggleSugar:
Moving at the Speed of Deliciousness
Barnes & Noble Is Really Branching Out

IDoSuagr:
Is This Wedding Over Yet?
Where Do You Stand? The Notion of Forever

Get Familiar

My top "artist" for last week (according to my last.fm)is CFOB (Citizens for Our Betterment).

CFOB is Fall Out Boy's viral campaign this past summer to promote their new CD "Folie a Deux." The Artist is considered CitizensFOB when really it is a mixtape that Fall Out Boy had put together. You can follow all of the previous and current viral campaign tactics here.

Though the mixtape may no longer be downloadable, I am sure there are ways to get it off if the internet. Here is the track listing in case anyone is interested.




Track Listing:
01. Guy Ripley intro
02. Ludacris (interview)
03. Fall Out Boy - ALPHAdog and OMEGAlomaniac (demo)
04. Fall Out Boy - Lake Effect Kid (demo)
05. Fall Out Boy - I Don’t Care (27) (featuring Clinton Sparks & Seth Green) (interlude) (demo/snippet)
06. Fall Out Boy - Catch Me if You Can/Proclomation of Emaciation (featuring Travis from Gym Class Heroes) (demo mashup)
07 . The Cab - Bounce (snippet)
08. Tyga - First Timers (featuring Evan from the Black List Club)
09. Panic at the Disco - Northern Downpour (snippet)
10. The Paul Revere Jumpsuit Apparatus - Nearly Witches (demo)
11. Cobra Starship - I Kissed a Boy
12. The Academy Is.. - Automatic Eyes Sauve Suarez remix
13. Hey Monday - Homecoming (snippet)
14. The Cab - Take my Hand Machine Shop Production (featuring Cassadee from Hey Monday)
15. Tyga - California Girls (demo)
16. Gym Class Heroes - Cookie Jar (snippet)
17. A Rocket to the Moon - Oh, Dakota (acoustic demo)
18. Four Year Strong - Bada Bing! Wit a Pipe!
19. Text fall Out Boy: FOB to 66937 (interlude - signup and instant betterment)
20. the Academy Is… - About a Girl (snippet)
21. The Hush Sound - We Believe in (Barack Obama)
22. the Hush Sound (interlude)
23. Butch Walker - Mixtape (snippet)
24. Cobra Starship (interlude)
25. Fall Out Boy - America’s Sweethearts (demo/snippet)
26. Clinton Sparks & Pete Wentz (outro)

Less of a review, more of a pathetic want

As silly as it sounds, American Apparel has a shirt that I want. Now, don't get me wrong, I do like some of their clothes. This is just a simple shirt that caught my eye and decided fairly quickly that it needed to be added to my collection of shirts.

To me it is just a simple shirt and it also has a decent price, especially for AA.
It is not in the Center City location (I checked on Saturday). I am not sure that it will be there, but who knows.

I am torn between Orange and Royal Blue. Orange just seems like such a nice fall color, but the Royal Blue is very bold - which I like as well.

Which one do you think I should pursue?

Shirt: Baby Rib 1/2 Sleeve U-Neck T
Style #: 4362
Colors: Black, White, Brown, Cranberry, Orange, Lemon, Navy, Royal Blue, Forest
Price: $18
Source: Hard Nipples Not Included

Banona?

At work the bananas have these interesting stickers on them.
"Lol"
"Lets play"
"Game time"
There's others too...
I'm not sure why, but they're pretty funny I think.
I personally like the lawlbananas!

--Cassandar

"I've got 200 seconds and I am ready to go..."

I am blunt and hateful.
I like a lot of different things that most people don't care about. I take myself way too seriously, but still easily made fun of. I have lived in Philadelphia for a year and I still don't have any friends here. I have two best friends from "home" (Virginia).
Here are a few random things about myself:
- People have a tendency not to like me.
- I am never happy.
- I easily laugh.
- I speak my own language.
- I have anxiety.
- I have commitment issues.
- My only talent is complaining.
- I am the most most predictable unpredictable person.
- I know all of the words to "Ice Ice Baby."
- I am the whitest person you know.
- I am stubborn.
- I have an addictive personality.
- I am straight edge.
- I fluctuate between the ages of 6 and 12 daily.
- I have 4 pairs of glasses.
- I am random.
- I like to dance.
- I like the Chicago Bears and the New York Yankees.
Want to know more, quiz me about myself.

In this blog I will probably talk about how much I hate my life and such - you won't get the pathetic hours worth of material version. I see myself as an all around person and I want that to be portrayed on here.

Sidekick Updates:
Blogger has a feature where you can e-mail updates from your sidekick, so expect A LOT of those. Pictures, complaints, stories, randomness... be prepared.

American Apparel:
I find their clothes interesting and unreasonable. I want to find a way to potentially review an outfit or article of clothing a week. Whether it is harassing the internet or going to the store and trying their clothes on.

Artist of the Week:
As I mentioned above, I have an addictive personality. When I listen to music, I have a tendency to get stuck listening a certain band or singer. So I will bring it up and talk a bit about the artist and why I am obsessing over them that week.

Feeds:
I have probably well over 100 feeds that I read daily. I would like to share some of the interesting ones with you! I will have posts with links to different sites and blogs with different content. I will include any pictures that I find funny.

Also, please feel free to harass my sidebar, more stuff will be up soon. Right now I have my last.fm and my twitter mainly.

I hope you lurk again.

Fanx.